Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

james blunt, goodbye my lover'

i was late to my driver's ed video and i took the wrong bus there and there's no cash on me and i lost my credit card along the way here or there. now im going to go mope in a corner and think of ways to slap myself until i bruise and bleed perfusively. have a good day.

-on the  other hand, i got my art job and teaching job back tthis summer, i think they're going to assign me third graders =p brats galore.=$$$$=fun!

spring break 2005 new york city here I come!! lol. yea, my friend Elise is going to London and Im going to Brooklyn,  nice eh? But I do get to see the beauties of my life!! I miss you guys soooo frigggin much!

ps- thursday St. Patty's  day crunk out at zen. see u there =p 

So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me,
Off guard
Red handed; now I’m far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me.

I need something else
would someone please just give me?
Hit me and knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh all I want inside
I still am empty
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me.

I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
(All that I’ve got)

I guess I remember every glance you shot me
Unharmed, I’m losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn’t even scream Fuck me.

I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
(All that I’ve got)

And it’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got.

So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn’t even scream Fuck me.

I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got. 

-the used